Monthly Archive for April, 2006

And she talked about how blessed she was and then I was looking at another friend of mine’s blog and she spoke of a beautiful moment she participated in the other day, and they have inspired me to show my appreciation for all that I have. Looking at my post yesterday I realize all the people that I have in my life… not to mention alllll the people who I did not have pictures of to give a face to a blessing in my life.

I am so lucky to have a husband who has aspirations for a better life and who is willing to work towards them, and he does NOT give up even though it would be easier sometimes. I have two beautiful children who, despite their childly impulses, try very hard to do what is right. I love them with every fiber of my being, yet I still fear it is not enough and they may wonder from time to time if they are loved. Oh how I wish I could be the perfect parent, but I do try my hardest and I hope that they know it.

I am lucky to have loving parents who are so willing to say to me… we weren’t perfect and we’re sorry, but we love you and we are proud of you, no matter what you do. This is invaluable to me and I wish I could say that to their faces, but I know I would just be emotional and it would not come out the way I would want it to.

I am so lucky to have my friends. There are people who go their whole lives without knowing if they have real, true friends that they can count on and I am blessed with so many people who I know love me and care about me. The Laughead’s, The Thraps, Mipper, the special ladies on my boards who I have known for years and with whom time can elapse, but when we talk, it’s like there’s been no time at all. What strength it gives me to be so blessed with a wonderful circle of friends.

Most of all, I am so lucky to have my Testimony. I am so blessed to have had parents that taught me of the love my Heavenly Father has for me, no matter what I might do. I am blessed to have the Gospel in my life and be able to raise my children with this knowledge as well. I know that it will give them peace when their lives inevitably have periods of pain and trails. My Testimony has brought me the love of my Savior and Father in Heaven many times over and I cherish it.

My life may not be full of nice cars, beautiful clothing, or big houses… but I am rich in so many other ways. I am thankful for all of my blessings, big or small.

Love, Kate

Now, clearly I do not have pictures of everyone I love but I have a few and I thought just for fun, I would share them with you! It will be fun, don’t worry….

So, you all know my kids… I have pictures on different posts, but do you know how *I* see them? Well, with Michael… he’s my big boy and so I basically see him as so, but when I’m being honest I still look at him like he’s this age and I just can’t help myself. Now Audrey is my baby and I don’t know if she’ll be my last, but when I see her, to me she is still even though she is actually growing up! Now this is my best online friend Mipper (that’s her handle) ok, it’s actually just her legs in her shin splint thingies (doesn’t she have cute toes?!)… she’d kill me if I put her actual picture up lol. Here is my best friend Becca , she requires anonymity too don’tcha know cause she fights crime in her 3-D glasses (You don’t recognize her right lol?)! What? Don’t believe me? Here she is taking a BIG bite out of crime! Here is her husband, also one of my favorite people, he looks cranky, but generally he’s not (it was veeeeeeeeery late in this picture). Now Becca and her husband are our best friends and we see each other as much as possible even though they live a few hours away, so our kids are all really, really close and actually view each other as cousins (left to right is Cameron, Jacob, my Michael, Elise, and my Audrey and then Elena , who is the most recent (?nd rumored to be the final, unless Chris and I die and then our kids get to be Wheeler-Thraps lol) addition to the Thrap fam . Then we have the Laughead’s also some of our best friends, this is not all of them, just Mike (who our Michael is named after), his wife Candace (standing) and his sister Lisa (you can barely see her face lol) and on this evening we were playing our favorite get together game, The Water Game (trust me, it is it’s own post) . Their whole family is awesome and sometime I need to pounce on them with the camera! Then we have Drew, my husband’s good friend from school who thinks I’m awesome because I’m so insightful and cool (he’s right, I am) so, here’s his picture , sorry ladies, he’s spoken for (really, he is not as goofy as this picture makes him appear). Next is my parents, pictured here with our kids this Easter. They are great parents and even greater grandparents! Now on to Jess, I met her in a class a year ago and we became fast friends! This is her wedding day (my husband took the rockin picture!), doesn’t she look beautiful with her husband Issa?! Now, my absolute favorite people in the world… my family! Aren’t they cute? You could pick them out of a crowd and know they are together, but put me in there and I just like some foreign white person lol!

So, there you go… all the people in the world that I love whose pictures I have on my computer! Trust me, there are waaaaaay more people who I love, I just haven’t caught them with the camera yet! So watch out… you know who you are!

Kate

And, well, I just don’t want to. I’ve gone to every website I frequent, every blog I enjoy and yet I find myself compelled to sit here and type something because it is more interesting that reading about how psychologists can not figure out a good way to empirically prove that therapy works! GALL! Who gives a behind? If people think it works, let it alone! lol

Without whining or crying about it! In fact, as motivation he wanted to take a before shot and an after shot so I could post it for all to see! Here’s the results!

Before

And After (with Audrey throwing a fit on the bed lol)

It’s not because I don’t care… and like a friend of mine, I realize that it’s way annoying to go to a blog every day (which I know there are millions of you that just WAIT for me to write something new right?) and see the same old thing!

I have two weeks left of school before summer. As of right now I’m flunking abnormal psych which is enough to make me want to throw up most of the time. I went to class, I read the material, I took notes, and nothing seemed to help me. FINALLY this week I think I’ve cracked the professor’s code… RESEARCH… he loves research and the bulk of his questions are about research even though the bulk of the material is about the actual disorders and whatnot. So now I’ve been sitting in class and trying to write everything he says thinking that this MUST be the way to pass his tests. LOL, we shall see… either way, I’m taking it this summer because even though he has had to lower the curve by two whole grades, a C in this class will just not cut it for grad school.

I’m also nearing the end of my 4 year degree and I’m scared to death. There is so much I have to do, plus, I have to take the GRE and apply for grad school! I’m not sure whether I should take an extra semester and get my aging certificate which would give me an internship and a nice cushion on my resume, or if I should just get done and hope that I get into grad school. Either way, I’m scared… the idea of either being out in the work force or graduate school is equally frightening lol!

My daughter turns 5 in less than a month. This is my little girl, my teeny girl who at a year old still fit into most of her 3-6 month clothing. This is no longer an issue, she is quite grown up now and totally excited about kindergarten, but I’m just not ready to let go of my baby yet. Every day it gets harder and harder to imagine adding more children to our family, but there is just a huge part of me that feels like our family is incomplete. Which just means… more of the same… waiting and seeing… wondering if things will change. I’m not making much sense, but trust me, in my head I’m totally with it. Anyway… Audrey, will be 5 and it feels like I just had her. I remember looking at her in her little oxygen hood when she was born, I remember her cute little Shrek ears when she was 5 months old, and I remember the first time she walked across the room to me! I can’t believe she can now count to 30 and name all the letters of the alphabet! It’s insane and I think that I will be a HUGE mess when I take her to kindergarten this year… perhaps I’ll avoid it and make her dad take her. I’m getting teary right now lol!

It just stinks to get old. I wish I could stop time and take a breather, but life just isn’t like that right? It’s so weird when you think about it… we have days where we think,” I just have to make it through this day and tomorrow will be better” all the while not really thinking about how we are LOSING that day. It will be gone and we don’t get it back! When I actually sit down and realize this, it is so depressing! I just need to appreciate every day with my kids because I know too soon they will hate me and not want to spend any time with me. In fact, I’m going to snuggle with them right now!

Kate