I have been two days clean! lol Ok, what I mean is, I have eaten well and exercised and remembered to take my medicine two days in a row! YAY… all I have to do is do that for the rest of my life… why did I think this would be so hard? HA!
In all seriousness, it is going ok. The past two nights I could not fall asleep and I was physically anxious because I wanted to eat and feel comforted or full. I kept thinking it would help me to fall asleep, but I held out and was able to fall asleep eventually without the extra food. Today I feel sick and I would like nothing more than to just kick back with some comfort food and lay around watching tv, but I have to change this way of thinking. Instead I popped some sugar free gum, drank some water, and then laid down lol… yeah, a better person would go work out, but I am not that person yet. Maybe later in the day!
Hey, you’re doing great (and I even know about your little transgression this afternoon and I still think you’re doing great!) Just remember that each new day you can say to yourself that if you cheat today then all those days of not cheating were wasted opportunities to eat yummy stuff so it’s not worth it because you’ve already come so far. I mean, sure today was a rough day, but was it really any harder than yesterday? And next week when I’m having such a lousy time without Josh I’m going to be doing the same thing–telling myself that its not worth it to cheat just because I’m having a craptacular day because I would’ve already done well for like a week and …you know what, I had to stop and change a diaper in the middle somewhere there and I completely lost my train of thought so hopefully you just get my meaning and YAY You!